Being single is not being alone; it’s a time to explore and reflect on yourself. Enjoy it while you still can. :)
You were never there for me, especially during the times I needed you…
Earlier you PM-ed me. It felt like HEAVEN, for real! We chit-chatted and knew how the each of us was doing.. Just the usual casual talk, honestly… except for the fact that all the feelings which I thought I’ve already lost came back to me, right then.
I can’t stop loving you… I can’t stop looking at your Facebook account… I can’t stop wondering when can I ask you to ask me the questions again… I can’t stop thinking about you…
If only I had an amnesia machine which, perhaps, can delete all the memories here in my head, I wouldn’t hesitate using it so that I can forget all those smiles and those killer looks which you once cast on me. But I surely can’t. And I won’t. As I mentioned in my previous
(rant) article, you were once a part of my life. You are one of the those that made me strong thus, I should be thankful to God for bringing you to my life. You weren’t a curse; in fact, you are a blessing. :>
Maybe I should let go of you, to build a stronger path for my future. It will not be easy, honestly speaking. I expect hardships but I know that thinking my future and my happiness could be my motivation.
If you could just ask me the question and clarify things for me, maybe I would be more happy. Again, thank you. :”>
~Tell me your secrets, ask me your questions, oh, let’s go back to the start… (The Scientist, Coldplay)
<clink!> Christmas wishlist!
I don’t know how all these started. As far as I can remember, it was Summer 2011 that I started to like you. You often glance at me in a very funny but comforting way (as if I were safe and secure) and I returned the glances. We did this for a long period of time (the whole school year, actually) - exchanging looks which, I bet, have something concealed in it; something sparky and mysterious.
So, now, here I am, spending time with myself and getting used to the times that I don’t see your gaze anymore. But, just so you know, I miss those times. I regret the things that made you forget about looking at me straight in the eye and mysteriously poke me from behind and the things that assured you I won’t shift to your course anymore. I somehow laugh whenever I remember that time when you heard me say that I will pursue the same career path as yours. You held me at an arm’s length and, as always, gave me that fatal look face to face. But that memory, I guess, will always be a memory from now on.
You made me glad whenever you’re online. Seeing your photo in “the friends online” gives me a slight feeling of satisfaction and fulfillment. I always click your picture in that tab and when the chat pops out, my courage always fades away. Probably I got used to and was spoiled by that you were the one who approaches me through chat. I really miss those times that we chatted all night long about our interests while I listen to The Script’s “For the First Time”. And I definitely cannot forget those questions that you haven’t actually asked me. You just said, “Pwede kitang tanungin?” and I would confirm. But then you would mumble and play with the keyboard, pretending to ask me in an alien language. You repeated this for about four times. And I would just laugh in return. PLEASE ASK ME THE REAL QUESTION AGAIN…
I guess, we are not really meant for each other (in case you have similar feelings for me, but I’m not expecting). It’s not the gender I’m talking about but our ends. We certainly do not meet halfway; we are two very different people with two different paths to take. Furthermore, what made me believe that “we are never ever getting back together” is the fact that you were always haunted by that person from your past and you can’t get loose from him/her. I never felt that there was a reason that I could be enough for you and with that, I seek for more - more of what I am not and more of what he is. But with all those internal sufferings I’ve undertaken, I can say that I TRULY LOVED YOU.
Let God and destiny be our guide and let them prevail. If we meet somewhere in the future, let it be. You know that I have always loved you and I’m looking forward to meeting you again to tell you that I LOVE YOU. Don’t be sad if I meet people from the university I’m in because you always have a portion in here. But as for now, I am thankful that you inspired me in my last year of high school. Thank you for being a part of my life. ;>
P.S. I would just focus to Jesse McCartney’s song, “Just So You Know” to remind me that I’ve always wanted to tell you something.
I got my new bunch of baking equipment thanks to my lovely mom! I would name my mixer MAX and my piping bag CAROLINE!
Just kidding! :> Soon I’ll be making cupcakes and brownies… Hooray!
It will happen.
This would be the most bittersweet movie in the world.
Oh my god.
i would cry
I will cry myself into an early grave.
OMG WHAT IF
I’m tearing up just thinking about it oh my god
and all the potterheads would just be like forty or fifty years old sitting in the movie theater with their kids and grandkids if you’re that old and we’ll all just be crying at the screen and we’ll all get wierd looks from our kids because there are like a thousand old people crying because professor snape said turn to page 394.
and we’ll just all sob and hold each other
I’ll bring the tissues.
So I’ve decided to open my IDEA to something INNOVATIVE! …and this could be the start of my career with my handy-dandy oven toaster! SHAZAAAM! >:) (You, cupcakes; me, business background; us, success! -TBG) To start off, I started with CHEESE! :>